“Draw near to God and he will draw near to you.” James 4:8 (NASV)
Four years ago I encountered a season of grief and anger. I had a miscarriage and became very angry with God. “Why me? Why did you do this to me?” I asked God all sorts of questions and as a result I started to turn away from him because I was hurting and felt that he wronged me. Weeks later I returned to work as a Therapist helping other people but no one was helping me. During the day I held my head high, shoulders back, and walked with poise. On the inside I was exploding. I would weep in the shower and quietly cry at night. Many people said, “You’re young; you can try again.” Little did they know-those were the wrong words to say. The message to my soul was so insensitive and never comforting.
BUT there was a break through! My anger humbly resurrected in the midst of my tears during Sunday School. I shared my “why me” question with my class. Immediately I was reminded that God loves me and he feels my pain. There were hands touching me, arms embracing me, and tears shed with me. I heard prayers whispered to God for me. I felt peaceful. At that moment I realized that I could not turn away from God any longer because I needed his peace to rest on me. In any situation, I have to be close to him to feel comforted, strengthened, and loved. Are your arms empty as a result of a miscarriage, stillbirth, early infant death, or tubal pregnancy? If so, choose to draw near to something greater than yourself for the comfort and peace you deserve.
Have a sweet day,
Shaneka
Shaneka thank you for sharing such a powerful testimony. Through your grief and pain God has set before you your purpose, your assignment. I experienced so many mix emotions after losing our baby that I know now that talking to someone what have been a tremendous help. I pray that good continues to bless you, your family and your business.
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